Free to Be Me

"Taking the high road is usually not the easy one to take or the most popular. The low road seems to offer instant satisfaction. It may seem better for the moment, but if you compromise your principles and your integrity, it will always end up costing you far more in the long run."

Billy Cox

It has been a very long time since the last time I wrote on my blog. I am not totally sure all the reasons for that, but I do know a lot of what I was working thru over the last few months was messy. In order to be able to take the high road it seemed silence was the best choice.

Being in leadership can be a lonely place especially when tough and potentially unpopular decisions have to be made. It is hard when you know that some people won't understand and you can't really tell them any more than you have to help make things clearer for them.

I have found that Gal. 1:10 (which has always been one of my favourite verses) has come to life for me in new and profound ways. Do I truly only care about pleasing the Lord or am I still selfishly tied to wanting people to be pleased with me? Is the applause of heaven paramount to the temporal cheerleading of those here on earth? 

So let’s keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you’ll see it yet! Now that we’re on the right track, let’s stay on it.

Stick with me, friends. Keep track of those you see running this same course, headed for this same goal. There are many out there taking other paths, choosing other goals, and trying to get you to go along with them. I’ve warned you of them many times; sadly, I’m having to do it again. All they want is easy street. They hate Christ’s Cross. But easy street is a dead-end street. 

Phil 3:15-19

Lord, I desire above all else for my walk, my ways and my musings to be pleasing to You and You alone. Please continue to help me navigate thru the land mines that are sometimes laying in wait and help me stay focused on the goal which is eternity with You. Let me not become encumbered with the weight of wanting people here on earth to understand and applaud what is done, but let me truly look to You for validation, significance and worth. Thank You for how you have ministered to me as I have spent weeks in a recliner literally crying out to You. I know those tears were all collected in your most tender way.

 You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn
    through the sleepless nights,
Each tear entered in your ledger,
    each ache written in your book.

Psalm 56:8